today, I learned
that the world is dark
and on the other hand,
light is precious
today, I found out
that people will never make any sense to me
and on the other hand,
I don't make any sense to myself, either
today, I worried about
whether or not I will find my purpose in life
and on the other hand,
I wondered if I already have
today, I lost control
of my temper and my thoughts
and on the other hand,
I knew that frustration will get me nowhere
yesterday, I wondered if
I would wake up today
and on the other hand, I thought about how
it would be nice not to
today, I assumed that tomorrow,
I will ponder these things again
and on the other hand,
I really don't want to.
tomorrow is a new today
that's what I thought about yesterday
and on the other hand, to me, my tomorrows feel like
another chance to screw things up again.
today, I wrote a poem
that described how I felt at the time
and on the other hand,
I wasn't sure if I felt that way at all, much less, why
and then I realized that I will never find
any state
of peace
of mind








